Change

I've never considered myself a coward before, but as I sit here typing, I realize that I'm the worst of all. All I want is to live in this summer forever.  Go to bonfires, sit around talking about our dreams and aspirations. I don't want to go in search of my dreams. I would rather sit here in a static state as the rest of the world spins around. 

I was blessed with the resources to go in the directions of my biggest aspirations, but the most gut-wrenching struggle is catching the train that will take me there.  

Leaving my hometown was always a huge goal for me. All I wanted was to escape the closed-mindedness that is the norm. But, as with anything, the more time you spend somewhere, the more you get comfortable. I found a group of amazing people who I adored spending time with. I discovered little hidden places to go to escape. 

At times I'm jealous of those people that move around their entire lives. They never grow attached to their surroundings. It's always somewhere new, someone new. However, on that same note, I'm lucky enough to have people and places that make saying goodbye so difficult. I have roots, regardless of how much I despise them from time to time. 

Thank you to everyone who has shaped me, forced me to become sociable and sincere, and loved me no matter what. I'm sure that as we move on in our separate directions, we will achieve everything we could ever imagine. The hardest step is the first. 

Good luck as we all continue onward into the great unknown.